Second Life – Swimming against the current

@just.iammaria

She/her

There are moments in our lives when the past resurfaces with an unexpected force, not to break us, but to remind us of the weight that we have been carrying for far too long. Second Life is a reflection on those echoes: the hidden blame, the quiet shame, and the relentless replaying of stories we once believed defined us.

This poem is an honest transparent look at what it means to swim against the current and to find the courage to step into a new sense of self, a second life, shaped by healing rather than hurt and self blame.

I told myself many times,

It didn’t matter,

all the chatter,

what was said,

and what I imagined in my head.

I tried to put it all to bed and yet,

everything re-emerged,

and I tried again,

but there it was, out. . .

There was never any doubt,

I always blamed myself,

and the blame,

became a weight,

I couldn’t move,

I couldn’t speak,

I was weak,

over time,

replayed the scenes,

in my mind.

The trap was lain,

I was sentenced, over years,

I took the blame and hid the shame,

what wasn’t my fault, there in the vault,

feelings resurface at times,

and all I can do is cope,

live in hope,

that I can turn and let that past burn. . .

I’m swimming against the current

Here comes my second life . . .